I don’t want my thighs to touch.
I want bracelets to be loose on my wrists.
I want my hipbones to stick out.
I want my stomach to be flat.
I don’t want my legs to jiggle.
I want to look cute in skirts and shorts and dressers.
I want to be able to wear a belt around my waist and look small.

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I am a murderer. on We Heart It -








This broke my fucking heart

This is why you don’t lie about having mental disorders. It is not a joke.

I’m crying

This broke my heart

this is real ocd, not the people in school getting annoyed when their desk is messy.


Those last few lines hit me really hard because that could easily be me. In fact, it has been, to a lesser extent. If I hit my left shoulder on something, I have to replicate it on the opposite shoulder. But sometimes, the hit on the right shoulder will be stronger, so I have to do the left shoulder again. It goes back and forth, until both shoulders are equally bruised. It happens with cuts and burns and even just people touching me. Animal bites are the worst because I can’t replicate them, and the pain of not being even hurts worse than the actual bite. Self harming can get really out of hand too- Everything must be parallel and symmetrical, and the same severity. A lot of people say that OCD isn’t difficult- it’s just some handwashing and keeping tidy. For some people, that might be it, I can’t speak for them. But for some sufferers, it is hell. Some days it’s bearable- but some days, I have to wrap up in a blanket in an effort to keep all sensation symmetrical, because the OCD is so bad that I know the smallest thing could lead to an incredibly dangerous spiral.

"He couldn’t have one cut wrist.He had to have two cut wrist”
Pretty much lost it there.


one pound
two pounds
three pounds
I’ll be happy once I lose some more.

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depression ☹ self harm ✄ ed ☠ blog
9803) I feel like I am only happy when I am losing weight.

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Mmm 😶

For everyone who doesn’t understand depression at it’s core. Here ya go.